I'm still thinkin of u every little moment of my life. I didn't regret once loving u. But now, I really think I should have let go a long time ago. This isn't right at all... Just trying to let go. Some one's gotta help me... Everytime I felt like letting go. Someone always helped me. But as for now, no one is here. I dun want someone to help me and the next moment I let another person down. I just dun wish to be known as someone who depends on others and thinks for herself only.
It's hard. But I'll try my best.
This whole blog is dedicated to you since the last one was ruined. Was it you? Did you actually tell her? Cos no one knew accept you and another person. Why did you tell her? Did you want to boast to her or something? Or make her jealous?? It's quite disappointing. And she actually PUBLICIZED it on her blog? Do you think I'm stupid or something to show everyone our secret? I still think of you everyday. :)
It's so hard forgetting you. I mean I just can't throw away all those memories we had together.
But I really think you've changed. Changed for the worst, not the better. I'm not sure why you've become a totally different person. It seems rather weird.
It's not you. I sincerely hope that what I really see are just illusions. Just all fake n unreal. I wanna see the truth in you.
This is not you. This is not the [blank] I used to know a year ago. This is definitely NOT the real you. Stop lying to yourself. You've changed. It's hard to believe it but I'm afraid it's more becoming a fact. It's scary. Frightening. Freaky. I just feel like forgetting everything and get on with my life. But if I could have the chance to be with you again, I really wanna change you. It's difficult, but I can. And I will.
Everything I do, I'll do it for you. Only you and no one else. It's hard to imagine anyone could ever take your place but I can't just waste all my life for what I wish to happen. I noe it's highly impossible. I wish I could just do something to help.
You're always in my mind. I had promised you. I'll keep that promise. My promise of two years.
I rmbr Sept the 1st. I'll rmbr that very day. 2 years from that day, I'll push and force myself, to get you outta my life. I feel suffocated. I can hardly breathe. If I could have the chance, I wanna tell you I had always loved you.
